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Bahama Drama

I Messed Up Bad

I Messed Up Bad

Yo, Bahama Drama, please don’t put my name on this. I’m begging.

I ain’t here to act like I’m innocent or make excuses. I know what I did, and it eats me up every single night. I just gotta get this out before I head to Jacksonville this weekend to try and give my life to God.

Since I was 15, I’ve had over 18 abortions. I ain’t even 30 yet, and that truth sits on my chest like a brick I can’t move.

I killed them. Every single one.

Sometimes I’m just sitting there, staring at nothing, thinking about what they’d look like. Would one of ‘em have my smile? Would they love to dance like me? Would they call me Mommy

But all I got is silence. No birthdays, no nothing. Just regret.

For two years now, I can’t get pregnant. I tried everything pills, apps, tracking my cycle, all that. I even prayed, crying my eyes out to the Virgin Mary, begging for a miracle. But nothing. My body’s empty.

And then it hits me, hard: maybe I broke myself. Maybe I ruined my chance to ever be a mom.

What kills me most is a lot of those abortions weren’t even necessary. I wasn’t starving or in danger. I was just mad, or petty, or done with some dude I didn’t wanna deal with no more. I treated life God’s biggest gift like it was trash. And now I might’ve trashed my own future.

I’m only 27, but some days I feel like my life’s already done.

To any girl reading this, I ain’t judging you. I’m warning you. Don’t do what I did. Don’t let a moment’s anger or hurt make you carry a lifetime of pain. Abortion ain’t just about the baby, it takes pieces of you too.

I don’t know if God’s gonna give me another shot at being a mom. But I know I’ll never see abortion as just a “choice” again. It’s heavy, and it changes you forever.

Pray for me, y’all. Pray I can heal. And please, don’t make my mistakes.

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I Messed Up Bad Yo, Bahama Drama, please don’t put my name on this. I’m begging. I ain’t here to act like I’m innocent or make excuses. I know what I did, and it eats me up every
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